Well you know it doesn’t get any easier and I am still dead inside just waiting to be able to be with you but I have two wonderful grandsons and I know you see them I pray for Holly and them all the time we have Mikey and douggie Holly and I are both Catholic now her sons are both Catholic and severely nonverbal autistic she has a very hard life but she loves them dearly I’m sure as busy as she stays that she talks to you all the time oh I can’t believe it’s been 14 years seems like just yesterday I can still reach out and touch you or when you’re not there I love you very muchAnd pray to see you soon but it’s gods time not mine so I wait and enjoy my grandsons and my daughter and other grandchildren and children until my time I know you’re watching down on us and I know you’re in heaven at least I don’t have to feel bad about that