Well I still miss you and now someone has taken my ring and I think I no who and feel so bad for thinking it but it's so hard not to I no that I shouldn't judge but it's hard. I no you would be disappointed in me but I have prayed on it and just can't stop myself. no I'm here alone broke and back to work part time Holly has moved out and I took Charles in and his family but I think with there help I don't make it and he doesn't make enough to live alone so we are sort of stuck. but at least we get along. I still stay moody and in my room most of the time thinking about all the things we were going to do and didn't pr how I should have done things different and didn't and how I can't change that now. The kids say now that I need to get on with my life but I don't no what more to do I get up everyday I eat and work I talk to the kids I can't do much else only miss you