Well here I am again just coming by to be able to feel like I talk to you a little today. It's been a long day I spent it with Holly and Michael and it was good we had great food his family always makes me feel so welcome. Lots of people and fun in the house than shopping I didn't have money but I had fun. Things are getting so tight I have moved in with Hazel but I still have no money with the bill's but I did get a part time job but haven't started yet. I will not do Christmas this year as I just can't buy gifts for anyone and it makes me feel so bad when I think of how much we always did I for the family I feel really bad that I didn't keep it up. So just saying I love you.