WELL I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITHOUT YOU. I THINK OF HOW YOU CHANGED MY LIFE FROM ONE OF A SCARED PERSON TO A LOVING AND CARING PERSON. DOUG TOOK A PERSON FOR WHAT THEY WERE NO MATTER WHAT THEY DID OR WERE HE LIKED THEM ALL HE LOVED EVERY ANIMAL'S AND WOULD CARRY A ROACH OUTSIDE TO KEEP FROM KILLING IT SAID THAT GOD HAD A PURPOSE FOR EVERYTHING EXCEPT A FLEA AND TICK. HE WOULD GIVE HIS LAST DIME TO ANYONE AND NEVER TURNED HIS BACK ON ANYONE.HIS DAUGHTER WAS HIS LIFE AND SO THEY WERE GREAT FRIENDS AND SO WERE HER FRIENDS WERE ALSO HIS. DOUG LOVED HIS CHURCH AND WOULD BE THERE AS OFTEN AS POSIBLE. HE DIDN'T SHOW HIS FEELING VERY WELL BUT WHEN I FIRST MET HIM HE DIDN'T EVEN KNOW THAT I WAS INTRESTED IN HIM HE HAD NO IDEA WHEN SOMEONE WAS FLIRTING WITH HIM I WOULD HAVE TO TELL HIM WHEN I SEEN A GIRL FLRITING WITH HIM. HIS WORD WAS GOLD AND NOTHING COULD CHANGE HIS MIND. HE WAS THE SMARTEST PERSON I HAVE EVER MET. I LOVED HIM FROM THE FIRST TIME I SEEN HIM WALKING UP THE STREET FROM THE DOG KENNELS. NOW AFTER EIGHTEEN YEARS I WILL HAVE TO GO ON WITHOUT HIM AND IT IS THE HARDEST THING I HAVE HAD TO DO IN MY LIFE. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND MISS YOU SO THAT I CAN'T BARLEY MAKE IT ANOTHER DAY WITHOUT YOU. PLEASE LORD HELP ME TO COPE WITH THIS AND KEEP HIM UNDER YOUR SAFE KEEPING.