Of all the people in my life you always were the one I knew loved me for myself and didn't judge me. I wish I could say that we were closer than we were but that would be a lie. I took the road that made me happiest just like you always told me too. If I could go back there are things that I would change I believed you when I asked you point blank if you were o.k. and you said yes you still had alot of pain but were doing better. I thought we had years and years left. But instead you left so suddenly. I'm keeping my promise to you doing the things we agreed on. I went to see mom and Lizard this weekend. They break my heart everytime we see eachother. I wish you could see Emmy she is getting so big and she misses her papa. I know that where ever you are you are finally at peace. I miss you more than anyone will ever know. I alone have to live with the fact I was never the daughter I should have been. All my love