WELL ALL THE MEDS AND DOCTORS IN THE WORLD CAN MAKE THE PAIN GO AWAY. I WILL LOVE YOU TILL I DIE AND I WILL WANT YOU TILL I DIE. I THINK I WANT TO DIE NOW THEN I DO SOMETHING WITH OUR GRANDCHILDREN LIKE ON YOUR BIRTHDAY I WENT IN HOPE OF FORGETING BUT IT NEVER GOES AWAY IT IS AWAYS THERE NO MATTER WHAT. I HAD THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AND NEVER EVEN ACTED LIKE IT I SHOULD HAVE SHOWED MORE LOVE AND BEEN CLOSER TO YOU , I CAN'T BELEIVE THAT I LET YOU RUN ME OFF TO NEW YORK WITH HOLLY AND NOT TAKE YOU WITH US, AND THEN I DIDNT DRINK ANYTHING ON YOUR BRITHDAY BUT I KNOW YOU UNDERSTAND THAT. ANYWAY I LOVE AND MISS YOU , HUGS AND YOU CAN HUG ME BACK.