Here I go again with Cassandra she needed to come back but I really didn't want her to as she really dislikes me unless I have money than she comes to see what she can get out of me but I guess that I sort of taught them that as we always trid to give them what they could but I guess they don't see it as love. I hope that this time she really likes it as Carol doesn't have a place to live and darius won't leave Carol alone which is good but very bad for him I just hope before it gets to bad that he will ask for help this time and stay out of trouble. I don't no what to do with Carol to help her but wait for her to admit she needs and wants it but at this time she says everyone is lying and I can't prove differant. Well I really miss your guidence as much as your love because as a parent and grandparent I fail without you but that is the real me nothing without you in my life. I hear that you are here somewhere now I just have to find that place or thing and except it than maybe I can start to make a real live for myself until we are together again at GOD'S will. anyway just stopped bye to see if this would help and to say I miss and love you always. you are still the light of my life and GOD TRULEY BLESSED ME WITH YOU AND US WITH HOLLY . I'm truley greatful for the time we were together