Just sitting here missing you and hating life. worried about my future and how I will make it. I no if you were here things would be different but GOD has his reasons. I will not make it mush longer living on my income it doesn't even pay the rent, if I go to work full time than I lose my ssi which is more than I make if I work full time I need you here to talk to and tell me what to do. Holly is home for now but leaves for the service in March. I hate this as it seems more of a bitch session about my troubles instead of a missing you which it started out as .