Well I'll try again. today is 1618 days sense you went home I just wish it would quit hurting and that I could be with you I no I have to wait for GOD to take me but it gets harder everyday sometimes I just want to end it and get over the hurt feelings but than I no that I would never be with you or go to HAVEN and of course that is what I really want so I wait. I love you so much and it doesn't go away it just makes me think of all the wasted time I could have used to spend with you insead of shopping or going off with friends without you or getting upset and staying in my room while you were out in the yard. I think of everytime you wanted me to run or skip or just play around and I would say your crazy I to old for that and you just wanted to have fun. well now I wish I could do it all over again and make changes but I no that I can't But I can say I'm SORRY . Life is nothing without you in it. I love you always